BXBX NOVEL Chapter 1842: Looking to Die
“What did you say?!”
Lin Yi’s body felt as if it had been electrocuted. All the hair on his body stood on end, and cold sweat drenched the back of his clothes. His body went cold.
“I only found out about this when I arrived at the hospital,” Qiu Yuluo said.
“I heard that on the day she said goodbye to your body, she quietly returned to the car, took two bottles of sleeping pills, and committed suicide.”
“She committed suicide…”
Lin Yi’s eyes were lifeless, and his body was trembling non-stop. Images of Li Chuhan flashed through his mind.
That woman who didn’t like to talk but had a gentle heart…
A person who was alone and hiding in the dark…
Lin Yi’s heart ached terribly. It was as if he was being held tightly by a pair of big hands, and even breathing became difficult.
“Hey, hey, hey, what are you doing?!”
Seeing Lin Yi walk to the window and jump down without a care, Ning Che was shocked.
She realized that he had already gone down to the first floor by jumping on the air-conditioner unit outside.
Ning Che didn’t know what had happened, but she was afraid that something uncontrollable would happen, so she followed Lin Yi and jumped down through the window.
“Wait for me!”
Ning Che chased after him and got into the passenger seat just as Lin Yi was about to start the car.
He stepped on the accelerator and drove out of the Central Guards Brigade base.
“What happened? Tell me quickly.” Ning Che asked nervously.
“Li Chuhan committed suicide.”
“Li Chuhan?”
Ning Che still had some impression of this woman.
She knew this person a long time ago and knew that she was related to Lin Yi. She was a very skilled cardiac surgeon.
Other than that, on the night of Lin Yi’s accident, she fainted when she saw Lin Yi.
The fact that she had such huge emotional fluctuations meant their relationship must be extraordinary.
And she chose to commit suicide at this time. Her feelings for Lin Yi were incomparable.
Lin Yi drove the car very quickly and arrived at the hospital in half an hour.
In order to avoid unnecessary trouble, Ning Che asked Lin Yi to put on a mask and sunglasses before getting out of the car. After this, went straight to the 22nd floor of the Third Inpatient Department.
Neither Li Chuhan’s identity nor Miao Guofeng’s connections qualified Li Chuhan to stay here.
However, because she had an extraordinary relationship with Lin Yi, the hospital arranged for her to be here.
When they came out of the elevator, they saw Qiu Yuluo standing at the door.
“How is she?!”
“She’s inside and has been unconscious for several days. Her condition isn’t good,” Qiu Yuluo said sympathetically. “Go in and take a look.”
Pushing open the door to the emergency room, Lin Yi rushed in without even changing his clothes.
“Hey, hey, hey, stop! Do you think this is just any place?”
The nurse in the emergency room tried to stop him.
“Stand down!”
Ning Che flashed her credentials. “This is a military operation. Stay out of it and leave.”
Seeing the credentials, the nurse got scared. She had never encountered such a situation before and hurried out.
“You keep watch here. I’ll handle the hospital matters to prevent any interruptions,” Qiu Yuluo whispered.
“Got it.”
Since the emergency room on the 22nd floor was reserved for special leaders, only a few had the privilege to use it. At the moment, Li Chuhan was the only patient there, with Qiao Xin by her side.
“You are…”
Qiao Xin stood up and asked carefully when she saw a stranger enter the emergency room. Moreover, he wasn’t wearing any PPE.
After a few days, Qiao Xin had lost weight. There were dark circles under her eyes, and her eyes were bloodshot.
Despite enduring for so many days, she was still holding on.
Lin Yi walked past Qiao Xin and stood in front of the window. He saw Li Chuhan lying on the bed, receiving an infusion of oxygen.
Tears flowed from the corners of her eyes.
Before this, Lin Yi felt that the person he had let down the most was Ji Qingyan.
However, at this moment, he realized that the person he had let down the most was Li Chuhan.
When he was no longer around, Ji Qingyan and Liang Ruoxu still had their parents and family.
Someone could support them, but not Li Chuhan. She had no one but herself.
He closed his eyes tightly as tears streamed down his face. He could only imagine Li Chuhan’s despair.
I could have endured the darkness if I had not seen the sun.
In the past, Li Chuhan also lived a simple and fulfilling life without Lin Yi.
After seeing Lin Yi, her life had turned upside down. Her silent heart had become colorful.
That day, when the sky was bright, Lin Yi supported all her desires and fantasies.
However, with Lin Yi’s death, everything she had dreamed of, fantasized about, and hoped for was destroyed at that moment.
She couldn’t hold on any longer, and her scattered spiritual world couldn’t hold on either.
She chose to end her life in this way.
Whether it’s the future or the bridge, I want to walk it with you.
Gently, Lin Yi reached out his trembling hand and caressed Li Chuhan’s face.
Her every frown and smile appeared in Lin Yi’s mind again.
His tears drenched his mask and landed on the blanket.
At this moment, a middle-aged man in his fifties walked in from outside. Qiu Yuluo and Ning Che followed beside him.
“This is Director Ma Xiaoyang of Union Medical. He’s in charge of Director Li’s treatment,” Qiu Yuluo introduced.
“What’s the situation now?” Lin Yi held back his tears and asked in a low voice.
“The situation isn’t very good. We can only do our best. It’s very likely that…”
Ma Xiaoyang did not continue. He believed that the other party would understand.
“The dosage of the two bottles of sleeping pills is indeed not small, but she was sent here in time. Coupled with Union Medical Hospital’s facilities, treating her shouldn’t be so difficult.”
“Normally speaking, the patient’s current situation should have improved, but Chief Physician Li’s situation is a little strange. Not only has she not improved, but her condition has also deteriorated rapidly. Clinical cases like this are not common.”
“Based on your experience, it might be caused by something.”
“Sigh…”
Ma Xiaoyang sighed and looked at Li Chuhan, who was lying on the hospital bed. He said sadly,
“Actually, I’ve seen such a clinical case once in the past. It was also a woman, and her condition was similar to Chief Physician Li’s. When she was sent over, with our Union Medical Hospital’s standard, there was a 90% chance that she could be saved, but she still died in the end.”
Ma Xiaoyang paused and let out a long sigh.
“In the end, we analyzed the reason for this outcome. It might be that the patient gave up on her own and was looking to die.”
“Looking to die?” Ning Che muttered.
“In reality, as long as a person is not brain dead, the brain is conscious. It just can’t show it. Even though Director Li is unconscious, her subconscious mind is still working, constantly reminding her to give up the treatment.” Ma Xiaoyang lamented.
“In other words, she’s the one who is causing this situation. She gave up her desire to live. We really can’t save a person who wants to die.”
“She wants to die!”
Ma Xiaoyang’s words made Lin Yi’s heart skip a beat. He felt indescribably uncomfortable.
He silently looked at Li Chuhan with a moved expression.
Ning Che, who was standing at the side, felt indescribably uncomfortable.
She recited a movie line.
She wasn’t the only one in Lin Yi’s life, but she only had Lin Yi in her life.
Lin Yi might be everything to this woman, her sun, moon, and stars.
Using such a method to end her life was the best option for her.
Qiu Yuluo patted Ma Xiaoyang’s shoulder.
That was all he had to say. There was no need to say anything else.
After explaining the patient’s condition, Ma Xiaoyang knew that he had nothing else to do, so he left the ward.
At the same time, Qiu Yuluo and Ning Che also left.
At this moment, only Lin Yi, Li Chuhan, and Qiao Xin were left in the emergency room.
Qiao Xin felt a sense of familiarity as she looked at the person in front of her.
His voice was exactly the same as Brother Lin’s.
Testing, Qiao Xin turned her head, wanting to confirm Lin Yi’s identity and see if he was Lin Yi.
Lin Yi didn’t do anything else and took off his mask and sunglasses.
“Brother Lin!”
Qiao Xin screamed and fell to the ground in shock.
“Calm down, I’m not dead,” Lin Yi said.
“What happened before was all a misunderstanding.”
“But the hospital had already determined that you…”
“At that time, my situation was similar to death. I recovered before I was sent to be cremated.”
Lin Yi’s voice was calm and emotionless. As he spoke, his eyes were fixed on Li Chuhan.
His thoughts were all focused on Li Chuhan, and he had no time to care about other people and matters.
After a while, Qiao Xin got up and hugged Lin Yi, crying loudly. The entire ward could hear her crying.
“Brother Lin, Sister Li is in such a state. What should we do?!”
She no longer wanted to know how Lin Yi came back to life.
She just wanted to know if Li Chuhan could be saved.
Lin Yi patted her shoulder and said quietly,
“It’s fine. You’ve been standing guard here for the past few days. It’s been hard on you. I’ll get the people outside to arrange a place for you to rest for a while. You can’t continue like this.”
“But I’m not in the mood to rest when Sister Li is like this.”
“It’ll be fine with me around. She won’t die. Just go back and wait for my updates.”
“Are you really okay?”
Hearing Lin Yi’s words, Qiao Xin’s eyes lit up like never before.
In her eyes, Lin Yi was an omnipotent existence. If he said this, there would definitely be no problem.
Lin Yi patted her shoulder again.
“Go on, it’s gonna be okay.”
“Then I’ll go back first. I’ll come back later.”
“Go back and have a good sleep. Eat something before coming back.”
“Got it, Brother Lin.”
After Qiao Xin left, only Lin Yi and Li Chuhan were left in the ward.
Lin Yi sat beside her and held her hand tightly.
“Why are you so stupid?” Lin Yi said gently.
“Even if I die, you have to live well. It’s not worth it to do such a stupid thing for someone like me.”
Just like that, Lin Yi said this patiently.
Although Li Chuhan did not respond, he still wanted to tell the woman on the bed what was on his mind.
He hoped she could hear him.
Because she didn’t know if Li Chuhan would wake up or not. He could only pray in his heart that she was fine.
“I’ll sing you a song. You don’t have to say anything. Just listen to me.”
“I’m most afraid of the sudden silence in the air,
“I’m most afraid of a friend’s sudden concern,
“The scariest thing was that memories would suddenly roll over.
“The cramps will not subside,
“I’m most afraid of suddenly hearing news about you,
“Missing if there would be a voice,
“Don’t want it to be a cry of sorrow.
“Now that things have come to this, I’ve finally made myself mine. Only tears can’t fool me.
“I suddenly miss you so much,
“Where would you be,
“Happy or aggrieved,
“I suddenly miss you so much,
“Suddenly sharp memories,
“Suddenly blurry eyes,
“We are like the most beautiful song,
“To become two sad movies,
“Why you,
“Take me on the most memorable journey,
“and then leave behind the most painful souvenirs,
“We are so sweet and beautiful,
“Then believe,
“So mad and passionate in the past,
“Why are we,
“Or should we run to our own happiness,
“And regrets grow old in the middle,
“I suddenly miss you so much,
“Where would you be,
“Happy or aggrieved,
“I suddenly miss you so much,
“Suddenly sharp memories,
“Suddenly, my blurry eyes…”
Lin Yi grabbed her hand and stroked it gently.
“I’ve spent most of my time and energy on other people and other things, never really dedicating much to you. Why did it have to be you who ended up like this? How can I ever make it up to you?”
Lin Yi tried to hold back his tears, but it was futile.
The tears soaked the white sheets, seemingly telling the story of the two of them.
“In the past, I didn’t have time to be with you. You always said it was fine and told me not to waste my time on you. But I regret it now. I want to give you all my time. Please, give me another chance…”
Sigh…
Lin Yi wiped away his tears. “Alright, enough of the sad stuff. Let me sing you a song. I never had the chance before. I hope you can hear it now.”
“What do you think? I know you’re not around, but I still ask.
“The air could not replace one’s voice.
“Habits, like stubborn scars that never heal.
“The moment he thought about it, his soul was torn apart.
“so that you can save and wash one more copy,
“A sweater, and an extra layer for you,
“But the warmth of your lonely hour comforts
“How to save an extra one for you?
“I don’t want to leave you alone in the sea of people.
“I don’t want you to walk alone in the rain and wind,
“I don’t want you to suffer the cruelty of the world alone.
“I don’t want my tears to accompany you for eternity…”
Lin Yi’s voice continued. Even though Li Chuhan couldn’t hear anything, he continued to sing. He didn’t know what the point of this was.
He just wanted to talk to her more because he owed her too much.
In the past, she didn’t want anything. As long as he could visit her occasionally and send her a few messages, she would be extremely satisfied.
However, it just so happened that this was the greatest debt he owed her.
In the past, Lin Yi naively believed that Li Chuhan held an important enough place in his heart. He just hadn’t given her enough time.
But now he truly realized.
What he had failed to give her was not just enough time and companionship, but enough love.
Life was often like this. We unwittingly fall into the traps of mundanity and only learn to cherish things after we lose them.
C’est la vie.
Some regrets are meant for those who missed out on the experience.
Some missed opportunities are meant for those who experienced them to regret..